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Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Newlywed, Nearlydead?

Ok this title is very a little dramatic but I feel totally and udderly exhausted. Not exhausted from all of the amazing festivities that went on last week, but exhausted from the bomb J dropped on me yesterday. Sometimes it totally blows being an adult and having to make real life decisions.

Let me fill you in,
Their are transfers open pretty much across Canada for J's position. So of course excitedly he applied for amazing places like Banff, Jasper, Lake Louise and........ Riding Mountain. He applied for the experience of applying and of course the curiousity of what would be offered to him. There was no thought in my mind we would actually consider moving to any of these places just yet as we only moved to Cape Breton last year. Keep in mind we bought a house and are not even completely moved in just yet. We are still exploring the island and continuously meeting new friends. I feel like we just moved in last month. Well, under the table, the Riding Mountain position has been given to him. Not officially as the letter won't be coming for another few weeks. We will have ten days once we recieve the letter to make the final decision. I don't want to be making life changing decisions right now. I want to be in the starry eyed, romantic newlywed phase with my husband where we are sharing caesars, frolicking on the beach hand in hand, feeding eachother chiaaaps. NOT fighting over where we want to live, waaaaahhhhhhhh.

It's totally funny how the prairie girl is so desperately wanting to be a maritmer and the maritimer can't wait to get back to the prairies. Of course I am absolutely in love with all of our friends and family but I really can't stand Manitoba winters. They are totally depressing! I can handle them if I am in a city where I can lose hours in a book store, meet a girlfriend for a perfectly steamed latte, drag my hiney to a gym, but living up there we will be just as isolated as we are here. I absolutely loved my first winter here, it was so mild with lots of snow. I wake up every morning feeling happy and relaxed. The beauty of the area takes my breathe away with every blink. We have made great friends who we adore! I especially love all of my moose friends and seal pups :p.  Now for J's argument... money. I can't work full time here as their is no source of employment for me in the winter. He gets laid off for 2-3months here, where Riding Mountain would be full time. Brandon is only an hour away from his parents and brother which will be amazing when we eventually have kids. So yes, his argument wins. I just wish this offer was five years from now. I am not ready to leave here. Last night J was just mopng around and the air just felt tense, I don't like this. He would totally be game to stay if all of our friends and family moved here! I know it's just not money for him, I totally think he got a little homesick having everyone we love here. I know I should just suck it up and be happy wherever I am with my love.  UGGGHHHHH screw you life decisions.

Ok tomorrow will be a happy wedding post, I promise :)

1 comment:

  1. yeah. . . tell jon i was in a bit of a funk as well, after returning to nyc. i had such an amazing, constantly-fun time with all of your peeps. and i just met them!! it was like coming down from a high (i mean, from what i hear;)


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